The Desperate Dilettante


I’m creative, but often feel like a dilettante. I can paint, write fiction, poetry, and nonfiction, draw comics, and sew…but so fucking what! Am I actually fabulous at any of these skills, or is making art just a sweet self-indulgence? I want my readers and viewers to be touched by my art, but have no clue which I’m stronger at creating. This is a conundrum. Piss.  Feedback, cake, and comments are welcome.

Here’s my list of possible new projects. Most of these have been started. Or I could just sew endless shirts and be the well-dressed desperate dilettante.

Fetish sculpture
Paintings (I haven’t painted in 8 years).
Graphic memoir.
Edit Doily is my Safeword as either one book or two.
Smut short stories.
Butch fashion and manners book.
Bird and Otter children’s book
The Underwear Thief children’s book

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Our LGBT Forebearers in WWII


The two questions I’ve encountered most when talking about Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII are whether it was difficult to find LGBT folks to write about in the 1920s to the 1940s and were they all closeted? The answers are that it was remarkably easy to find LGBT folks to write about and that the vast majority were out.

In Europe, the period immediately preceding WWII was remarkable progressive. Black American artists moved to France, where there was less racism, lesbians flocked to Paris, and there was a flourishing LGBT culture in Berlin. This enlightened and vibrant atmosphere emboldened many LGBT folks to be out about their orientation and identity and because they were already out before the war, it became easier for the government to identify, arrest, and imprison LGBT folks once the Nazis gained power in the early 1930s. 

I wanted this book to be more than an account of what our LGBT forebearers did during WWII, more than a dry litany of bravery, and their lives were so fascinating that this became imperative. As I researched and wrote about them, I fell completely in love with each man and woman in this book. I wanted to write about the context of their lives pre-war, during the war, and post-war. How did they react to the rise of fascism in Europe? What were their lives like before, during, and after the war? What kind of art did they make? Did they join underground Resistance groups? Did they find love? Did they help people escape death? What was their everyday life like? Were they imprisoned?

All of these questions are answered in this fully illustrated historical biography, along with discussion of the progressive Weimar Republic in Berlin, the flourishing lesbian scene in Paris in the 1920s and 30s, and how pre-war Germany rabidly progressed from a progressive democracy to a Nazi led dictatorship within a few short years.

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Laura Antoniou Reading the Foreword


The talented firebrand and author Laura Antoniou wrote the passionately fiery foreword to our new release, Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII… and here she is reading it. Laura says, “This is no children’s book – it’s a rather sober collection of exhaustively researched biographies of people whose lives didn’t all end in seeing victory for  their causes and fellows. Ideal for showing how the struggle against oppression wrapped in populist rhetoric shouted by tyrants isn’t just contemporary.”

Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII is an amazing fully illustrated historical biography with drawings by an international bevy of queer artists. Read more of Laura Antoniou‘s work including the erotic fiction, The Marketplace series and the mystery The Killer Wore Leather, and become Laura’s patron on Patreon for additional sneak peeks into her work and her process…not to mention loads of yummy recipes!

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Give the Gift of Gay for the Holidays!


In the month of December, my true love gave to me…one bunch of butches, a group of gay resistors, dyke demonstrators, a tank of transgender activists, and a boatload of bisexuals! All for me!!!

Buy at Stacked Deck Press. $5 flat rate shipping for all domestic orders — stock up on LGBTQ+ comics and books for all your favorite pals, sweeties, and teachers! Also available on Amazon in the US and Europe.

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It’s Finally Raining in San Francisco

airI’ve finally finished writing Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII; long mornings of waking up, showering, dressing, making an iced latte, then sitting down at 6:30 am to research and write about WWII for a couple of hours before I take the bus into work are completed. I decided to add a small glossary, mostly of German laws that were enacted in 1933 and leading up to the war — that time period when the liberal Weimar Republic was winding down and the nationalists were gaining power is early familiar.

I live in San Francisco, just 70 miles southwest of the recent massive, quickly moving fire that destroyed the town of Paradise, killing over 80 people, burning down over 13,000 homes, and who knows how many animals were killed. The smoke of death and destruction traveled, reaching San Francisco and hovering in our air for ten days, a thick yellow haze that burned our eyes and throat. It was recommended that we stay indoors to protect our health, classes and events were cancelled, and people organized to hand out masks and water to the vulnerable homeless folks.

I work in downtown San Francisco, in a small basement room with piss poor ventilation, which meant that I was sick by the time I spent eight hours in my office. My cat, Lulu refused to enter the living room of my small drafty Victorian apartment, where there was a bay window. She normally slept on a small faux leopard covered armchair in front of the window, but she stopped. She took to sleeping under the blankets on my bed, something she never did before. I started calling her my little canary-in-the-coal-mine cat.

My girlfriend in Massachusetts mailed me two N95 masks to filter out the poisons and I gave the extra one to my neighbor who’s on a fixed income.  Walking down the streets of the city felt apocalyptic and strange; many folks were wearing either white masks or more elaborate ones that were reminiscent of WWI gas masks. Politics continued to trudge forward, each day more disorientating than the last. It was during this time period that I received my review copy of Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII at work. I carried it home on the bus and through the smoke while wearing my mask. The book was beautiful, but the circumstances were bizarre and dreamlike.

Thankfully, the recent rainy, windy weather has blown away the smoke and toxins from my city. I’ve returned an enormous stack of WWII and queer forebearers research books to the library and have been reading Scandinavian mysteries instead. I’m exhausted though; between immersion into the Holocaust, angrily pounding out Resistance: The LGBT Fight Against Fascism in WWII, the calamitous fire, politics, and my cold, my brain has drained into nothingness. I hope you enjoy the book. For me, it’s time now for pleasure and relaxation — sewing projects, strolls through the Botanical Garden, visiting my daughter and grandchildren, maybe a new tattoo, and cooking experiments in the kitchen.

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